I am going through something similar right now, so I understand what you are going through.. :(
Nothing will heal your loss, but time may make it hurt less.
In the meantime, try to occupy yourself so you don't think about things too much. Company is nice to take your mind off the tough stuff.
It always hurts to lose a loved one, but it will get better, I promise. Hugs!
1 Doberman Mix: Emmy, 2 DSH Cats: Rowan & Jacob, 1 Bearded Dragon: Rainier (aka Mista Lizad Man), 1 Eastern Box Turtle: Greta, Two 5g tanks: Alchemy (Halfmoon) and Custard (Yellow VT)