when Caroline passed, after i worked so hard to help her get better, i cried. i STILL cry about it. i really loved her. she helped me out when i was down, and i felt that i failed her. but, i know i did everything i could to help her, and i know she appreciated it. getting Heavy and Spy in the mail helped me a little, but i think it was getting Scout that helped the most. such an ugly, tiny thing.
getting new bettas doesn't always help, and often when one passes, i resit the urge to get a new one. but, i wanted to help Scout out. that's what gets me though the downs. helping bettas out. be it my current group, or a newbie i pick up from the pet store. that happy wiggle dance, and the bubble nest, make it all better.
Purple's sick, with the same thing Caroline had. i don't know how to treat him at all, because i never figured out how to help Caroline. all i can do, is make him comfy, and it hurts. i love that little guy alot. it gets me down, when i see him hanging out up top, clamped and pale, or hiding in his boat. but, then i sit down on the chair in front of the shelf, and see Scout, strutting around under his huge bubble nest. it's bigger than him, in every way! so, even though Purple's sick, Scout's thriving. i may not be able to help Purple, but i saved Scout, and he's dong amazingly. <3 helps me feel better.