I know exactly how you feel, my first male was soooooo special to me. His name was Vincent, and he's the guy in my avatar. January 2010 I came down with a very rare disorder called Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (causes dysfunction in your autonomic nervous system). It left me bed ridden for months. I had bought Vincent the previous April, and while I was sick he kind of got forgotten. He sort of got fed but his water didn't get changed for a veryyyy long time. Despite that, he never got sick. I remember the first thing I did when I was able to get out of bed was change his water. It was sooooo hard and I had to sit in a chair in front of the sink to do it, and I nearly passed out afterwards, but I remember the sense of accomplishment and hope that I hadn't felt in a very long time. It also felt good to take care of another life, instead of everyone taking care of me. He was such a special boy, he had the most cranky personality and he only truly liked me, but that made him my favorite haha =D I still really miss him, I don't know if I'll ever feel the same way about a fish ever again. I love my guys now, but they aren't as selective with who they like as he was XD Although, I did cry pretty darn hard when I lost my second boy, Finley. He was just soooo young, only a year and a half old, and it's possible that he died because he may have eaten a piece of gravel, which made me feel like it was my fault =/. He was always sooo active, it was a huge blow when he died so suddenly. I actually lost Vincent and Finley within a week of eachother in July. They were both special guys =)
Also, I'm sorry about your break up, that stuff totally blows. I know it's pretty much the last thing you want to hear when you've broken up with someone, but it does get better =)
My Current bettas:
Sullivan- Orange rose tail halfmoon male
Daisy- Mustard Gas (black and yellow) veil tail female
Milton- Teal butterfly halfmoon male (mom's betta)
DFTBA to nerdfighters working to decrease world suck!
Last edited by Indyfishy; 09-21-2011 at 01:05 AM.