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Lately, I have been really depressed. There are so many reasons why, but the main one are, I have been having some really bad family problems lately. I git mad at myself because when my parents divorced I was so upset because I had to get two of everything (like papers) and i wa always in the middle if all their fights, but now I scold myself for being so stupid, amd not realizing how good I had it...now, I almost break Inti tears everytime I see for instance a field because it reminds me of my dads house... This has been really hard on me and it breaks my heart that everyone around me sees me as a happy person, but inside im dying. I would be crying as I write thus but I'm in public, and I never cry in public. I want to tell my dad that everyday I look for him, and everyday I look for his car, but I never find it. And everyday I look for him, he's never there, and I want to ask him why he wasnt there when I needed him most but he's not even there for me to tell him. No, he's not dead, but the last time I saw him was the first week of JANUARY. I know this is hard for him too, but I feel like no one understands my past has been hard for me, and I have been literly scard for life. I know that that place wasn't good for me, and I was treaters badly, but I can't help but miss it. Since I have been gone, 3 cats I deeply loved, died and I'm afraid more loved pets will die before I see them again.
That's the problem. I'm afraid.
I either talk to my fish when I'm mad, or I'm mad because I talk to my fish.