-.- So, in my voice lesson last week my voice teacher told me I can't sing in tune, I need to get my ears checked, I need to rethink my major, AND called students services to try getting me into counseling because she thinks I feel unloved and need to make some changes in my life to be happy. This week she comes in acting like NOTHING happened, she smiles and asks me how I am, and we get to work. Well, this week her complaint is that I'm apparently the single most unconfident musician she's ever met in her life. I WONDER WHY? Let's rewind the tape a little, shall we? She KNOWS that on the one hand I have my parents rooting for me to fail out of the major and telling me I'm just not good enough, and then I have her little pearls of wisdom... She's not always like she was in my last lesson, but every once in a while she'll get in a mood and either be really aggressive with using scare tactics to teach or just start being unnecessarily harsh. I can't IMAGINE why I might not be a very confident person. -.- On the bright side, she called me a musician...? And I'm memorable for something?
Seriously. She knows A LOT about music. She's a very intelligent, knowledgeable woman. But dear GOD she makes me angry sometimes. She can't have it both ways! She can't tell me I'm awful and a failure and then complain at me for not being confident enough.
I don't know. I'm just frustrated. I will admit that I have a lot of issues with confidence. But it's not like she's HELPING with it. I just feel like she can't complain about my lack of confidence when she just makes the situation worse.