I'm sure everyone here's tired of hearing my complain about my family. But they just make me so angry!
Today started off great. I went out fishing with my dad. We were catching tons and tons of fish. But then my mom texts me about my Grandma's birthday dinner tomorrow. Now, my family knows I work on Saturdays. This isn't something new. It's been this way for months and months. Keeping this in mind, does anyone ask me what my schedule is? When they make reservations do they ask if I can go? Nope. I just get a text "We're going here at x time". Turns out, I'm supposed to be starting a lesson when they're supposed to be at the restaurant.
I started getting all stressed out because I knew my mom wouldn't want me to not go. But I'm supposed to be working. I can't just rearrange my work schedule every time my mom plans something. Especially not on short notice. My dad tried to calm me down and said that if I couldn't change it he didn't think my mom would be too mad if I didn't go. Wrong. I got home and my dad mentioned it to her because he knew I wouldn't. She told me I have to reschedule. No can you reschedule. No what time are you working until. Just you have to reschedule because you have to be there.
I'm just so angry! It's not like it's some silly hobby. It's my job. And I've lost students in the past when I had to reschedule lessons because they didn't want to wait. My mom told me that it shouldn't be a problem because this particular student reschedules on my all the time, but that's different! They're the customer. They're the ones paying me, so I accommodate them, not the other way around. This just makes it even more clear that she has no respect for what I do. To her, it's all just some hobby. But it's not. It's a paying job.
It's not even like my aunt and uncle are only coming out for dinner. They're staying the whole weekend. And it's them, my parents, my sister, and my grandma. It's not like it's a huge crowd with a bunch of different schedules and this was the only time that worked for the majority. It wouldn't have killed them to schedule it later in the evening. It ALSO wouldn't kill them if I didn't go... For a while it looked like my aunt wasn't going to come and then my mom was flat out REFUSING to go out at all because she didn't want to take my grandma out without my aunt as backup. And then my grandma wouldn't have been able to go anywhere because she can't drive.
But I know that if my sister was working, they wouldn't tell her to change her schedule on a moment's notice. I've only ever cancelled on students twice and that was for mental health reasons. I wasn't sure I'd even be composed enough to drive that day, let alone teach. And you know what? I gave almost a week's notice and the students ended up switching teachers because they didn't want to wait. -.- So, one, I only want to cancel if for whatever reason I'm not capable of doing a good job of teaching or if some emergency comes up. Sorry. A birthday dinner that could easily be moved to a later time doesn't fall into either of those categories.
Oh! And another reason to not reschedule! The store I work at is having an open mic night where teachers, students, family, etc. can all perform. This student is considering performing. If she does, this will be her last lesson before open mic night. It's not fair to her to cancel this lesson. But my parents won't understand that because it's "just singing lessons" and "just a silly performance".
But if I tell my mom that I'm upset no one bothered to ask if I was able to go and now they expect me to change my work schedule on less than twenty four hour's notice, she'll tell me what an awful, horrible, selfish brat I am.