Go ahead, dad. Talk to my sister about me in the next room. It's not like I can hear you or anything. And then play dumb and offer me a snickers and ask what I think about the health care bill when I walk in. Because I'm definitely going to believe you were talking to my sister, who doesn't care about politics at all, about a supreme court decision. And while you're at it, go ahead and tell me exactly how much you don't care that I'm upset. I love knowing how stupid you think I'm being when I'm already angry and upset. In fact, why don't you just push my buttons and make me even more aggravated? Not like I actually wanted someone to listen, or anything.
I'm so sick of it. I got a bunch of "I told you so"s from my mom earlier today when I got upset over seeing 26 courses I took, plus AP credits, thrown out the window. Because somehow hearing her say that she knew I wasn't good enough for the program I wanted in my old school is supposed to help. And then I get made fun of by my dad for being upset about having to take classes that aren't going to be any challenge for me instead of being able to take general physics or general chemistry. Because apparently it's stupid that I want to actually have to think.
And I'm just being snobbish and negative and, you know, it's not like I'm the first student to ever be upset by college policies.
I didn't SAY I was the only student upset by college policies. I SAID I was angry and upset. But APPARENTLY that's not okay! But it's perfectly FINE for my sister to roll her eyes and tell me I should be grateful that I'm only allowed to take a baby science course because if SHE was ABLE to take a baby science course she'd be jumping for joy. How's that for a ******* superiority complex? And then it's FINE for her to wander into the other room and talk to my dad about how ridiculous I'm being for being angry that I can't take challenging courses and that so many of my courses were disregarded WITHIN EARSHOT!
FINE! I GET IT! She's the ******* favorite! But why is EVERYTHING that upsets me invalid? My students are wreaking havoc on my schedule by signing up and then after the first lesson asking me to start coming in on days I wasn't originally working instead of their original lesson time? Oh, well. They're the customer and I just need to be accommodating. Huh? One of my students is a disrespectful brat, a pain to teach, and doesn't listen to a word I say? Well, it's just music lessons. I should let her do whatever she wants when she wants, and then she'll be happy. School won't even take half of your credits? Well, we told you this would happen! You should be grateful they're giving you any credits at all! You want to be challenged at school? That's silly! Take the easy classes to fill requirements and be happy!
And to think I actually wanted to talk to my mom about how I can't make myself not be upset about not going back to my old school even though I hated it there! I'd just get an earful about how I brought all of this on myself by trying to pursue music. And then they ******* wonder why I feel like they value my sister more than me. They can SAY they don't all they want, but actions speak a whole lot louder than words.