Originally Posted by teeneythebetta
No I made him mad for another reason (long story) but the reason he goes after my animals every time he is mad is because he knows how much they mean to me.
Looking at Teeney swimming around all happy and thinking about dropping her live body into the cold toilet bowl was traumatic enough. Im glad he ended up not making me do it.
Wow, frankly thats inappropriate behavior from any adult. Death is the worst form of a threat.
So, find some one that can take your fish, if it happens again. Perhaps, buy a new game, and play it constantly, talk about it all the time, get it? If you have an interest that is greater than the cat and fish, your dad will use it.
Dont talk out loud to the pets, if dad is in the house. Unfortunately, this forces you to play a very unhealthy game, and I dont even want to say the above, but for your own sanity.
Do you have any other adults you can confide in that are responsible and can help you? Teachers? But these people must never go back to him, and say what you have said.
I feel for you. I was taught to be seen and not heard, ever. Speak only when spoken too. My parents went overboard, thinking they were creating the perfect slave child.
I was so shy even around my grandparents, everyone thought it was so odd. Even my parents! By the time i hit highschool, I only had one 2 loving friends, and one moved away.
I did get a few more friends that I went through high school together, but it was hard. I was invited to be a cheer leader and declined, no way could I do that. I could give speeches, almost failed an english class cause of that one. etc etc.
It is a hard road. But, I loved going to movies, or an airport and listening to people coming and going... wanted to be a fly on the wall. Dont give up, and please get out there...
Even if you are alone out there? you can still see everything. Now in my older age, I can speak up, I can make friends, and I can be around others. But i find if im home too much alone? its gets difficult again to be outgoing.
Take care, we are with you.