Surprise! I'm alive. So far, I'm just goin to torch that stupid car since my Bill of Sale magically disappeared when Dean moved out, so I cannot register it nor sell it (people are so paranoid). 50 for anyone who wants a freaking car D: I put 500 into it and it is not worth another 1000 for me since I lack a mechanic friend.
"oh wait isnt your brother a mechanic?" brother? I don't HAVE a BROTHER. I know an inconsiderate twat in the family who I so viciously stood up against. He DESTROYED one relationship, he tried to MEND a bad one and then try to drag me down to feel miserable to crawl to him like a beaten dog? No. NO.
And I know Dean would be more happy if I were miserable. Guess what? I won't be. Yeah, I am still hurt, and it will hurt for a while, it always does. Bt no I won't show it. I won't break down. I won't stop working because of it, or slow my life down.
I jumped my life into full throttle, no brakes. I tore out the brakes when I was left stranded from home in the cold with no jacket and no family was home that night. I found the reason for my art again. I am back with my first, and hopefully last. Who never did me wrong but he was not ready two or so years ago. I can save up to 1000 a month. Next month I pay off my 500 dollar iPhone. I've only got a box of stuff, two female bettas (baby betta ended up female), and a basket of clothes. And darn, am I doing well.
I did realize... You can't rely on people. Ever.
Breed for the breed, not for the money; the words any REAL breeder would understand.
You must know nothing in order to know all, for all is nothing and nothing is for all.