Okay, I am just going out right say it: ChoclateBetta, you really need to stop making things about yourself. I have read, seen, and even found out first hand that almost everything you say either irritates someone or you makes someone feel bad. Personally I believe that you're not ready for this forum; take a few months (or even years) to lighten up and come back.
I've seen you completely derail threads and I have seen you spewing information as fact when they are clearly your own opinion. There is a: time,place, and a way of suggesting information to others that will not rub them the wrong way. I really wish for your sake that you learn this. I will not go into detail because I have already and I don't feel like repeating myself.
I have done some stupid things in forums as a kid as well and I think that you can use some time to gain some perspective. Really enjoy yourself with your fish, instead of participating in conversations you should just sit back and read. IF there really isn't anything to add to threads, you shouldn't.
I know that I will be taking some lashing from the moderators for this but we really need to stop beating around this bush.
Be a master of water and the fish will follow