Hang in there, Drift. You are not invisible to us. I'd give you some advice, but honestly, it all sounds overly cheesy in my head, so I'll just say that you're in my thoughts and I hope you feel better. Someday, you will find true friends that stick with you no matter what.
It's been 5 years...I'm no longer a newbie
20 gal long-otos, glowlight tetra, black phantom tetra, African dwarf frogs
56 gal-zebra loaches, serpae tetra, rosy barbs, bristlenose pleco
2 gal-empty (formerly Mercury-purple veil tail betta