definitely is exhausting pearl on top of a bossy 22month old i have a bossy 60yr old mother lol
Thank you shirley, i totally understand wanting to get a good education on subjects that are very interesting, i wanted that as i was growing up despite being ridiculed, criticized, and belittled as a young girl, i wanted to go to university and head out into the world with atleast some knowledge of it. Unfortunately those constant badgering, nagging, and put-downs had taken a toll and i seen my only way out was to i regret to say become common-law spouses with my first bf who i thought actually loved me. My grandmothers have always taught me that children are sacred and i believe honestly I am blessed to be granted the honour of taking care of these five precious gifts. I truly am happy to see you working for your degree, its just ...
I sometimes just want to fade away like fog when i keeping hearing statements like "Your grandmother's sister's niece has moved to calgary to go the S.A.I.T, or UofC for her diploma" or "Your uncle's son bought a brand new truck and has gotten a job in northern alberta" or "Your sister has a new job and getting a new house"
that cousin that has moved to the city is actually going because the drugs on the rez are **** as she told me herself, that cousin's parents bought him that truck and is working for one of his father's friends, and my sister who has five children too, gave her youngest away after he was born to a cousin to raise and the other four are living with their father while yes she does work but goes out drinking every weekend and doing drugs when shes not working while jumping between atleast 4 guys telling them all lies..
yes mom yes they are doing wonderful and in your words i am the pathetic one who gets up at 4:30am sometimes to the constant slobbery kisses of said bossy 22month old, to prepare snacks for the older kids, feed the fish, then the rest of the household chores the rest of the day unless i've actually done most yesterday and have time to wander to the lps with the boss tucked into the stroller. Yes I want to do what you are doing shirley, i want to get a better education but i know my limits and since i only have one year left to watch my last baby move through his milestones I am going to do what makes me happy just as you said.
I was a slave for nearly 9 yrs with almost loosing my life near the end, i have had almost 6 years to begin to live and learn who I really am and still learning as each day passes, and i know it sounds strange but I am grateful for what i have gone through otherwise I wouldnot have actually seen the world the life that was almost taken away from me.
Ok now i apologize for this novel
and as for the zombie part lol it was just the fact i have seen some people go day to day work home work home... I would like to have more money too but all in good time. I learn as my children learn. hahaha....