*hugs* We're here for you if you need us, Dragonflie.
My anxiety always progresses in my own brain...I take one thing that I should keep an eye on and then it starts to fall over like dominos. And I obsess and obsess until I work myself into a tizzy, which is where I'm at now.
And right now it's the hurricane. I'm inland..about an hour west of Philly. I'm in that "maybe or maybe not" area, right on the border of where it could be terrible or not so bad. *sigh* usually how it is for my area. Either we get horrible stuff or nothing.
I keep dreaming up all these horrible possibilities, because I never think about hurricanes as far north as I live. So now at the last minute everything is running through my head at the same time, like "what if" we have no power for a few days, I can't cook anything, there probably won't be anything left at the store by now, yada yada. And the "what if" if gets bad enough I need to go hide in the stairwell (I'm in the second floor of a large apartment complex). Basically every horrible scenerio I can come up with always seems more real to me ever since my son was born. He is 7 now; but still so much a baby in my eyes, and I worry about him constantly.
I started out only worried about not having power for a day, now I'm worried about flooding and contaminated public water....
I love my fishies so much; but if its only power being out the bettas will be fine, they don't technically need the filters they have anyway. And my overfiltered community tank..I could do water changes to keep some o2 and toxins down. Gah, I love them alot but right now my fish are the least of my problems.
Feel like I got this big rollercoaster going on in my brain and the ride won't stop.