They won't get off my back :(
I've got two halves to my life- horses and music.
I used to ride three times a week until one day over a year ago (About 1 year and 3 months) when I fell and got a concussion. I would've had to stop anyway because of money reasons.
I was blamed for a lot of things that I didn't do, so I left the barn I was at.
I can't find another barn that I'm happy with, and I'd have to pay for my lessons with my own money.
I really do miss riding, but things have changed for me.
Ever since I fell, music has taken over my life. I've gotten so much better at guitar, I've been writing more songs, and it's just become a bigger part of me than riding.
I'm dying for a new guitar, and even though it was hard, I finally made the decision- I'd rather have a new guitar than riding lessons. My logic was, I can spend $700 now and have a guitar that will last for years with minimal payments on top of that- new strings and guitar picks, or I can spend $700 over the course of 3 months and only ride that long.
I belong to another forum- a horse forum with a small group of us that left a bigger site because we were tired of the trolls. They won't get off my back about riding. They keep telling me I complain too much and I'm not trying hard enough and that I don't want it as much as I say I do.
I'm so sick and tired of it.
My current FB status is "The decision has been made (Unless Pianos 'n Stuff changes my mind/I find a reasonably priced used Taylor (The preferred option))- Dean guitar, here I come. Once I find the money for you."
One of my friends from the forum commented "Lessons...? D:"
I already informed her of my decision, but she won't lay off. Only one of them understands the whole thing and gets why I'm choosing what I am. She knows I wouldn't make this decision lightly and she's supporting me because of that. She gets how hard it is for me to face what happened and she's standing behind me for this, because she knows it's up to me. She is my "mom" so I guess she should understand :P
I just don't know how to deal with it- I'm a freshman in high school. I've got athletic requirements that mean staying at school until 5-5:30. I wouldn't have time anyways on top of homework. I have to go to track meets twice a week that usually last until 7 PM because I'm managing track to fill my credit requirement for freshman year sports. Music I can fit in, but a 3 hour trip to the barn, not so much.
Please help- it's stressing me out and I just don't know what to do.