FishyFish, you can believe what you want, but that god in your book is nowhere close to merciful or forgiving. The guy in this youtube video makes my issues with it clear. If you look outside, read the newspaper, and see any sort of perfect world where theres a perfect, loving being looking out for all of us? Sorry, but that's delusion. I'm really sorry your friend is accusing you of that. That's horrible!
That video just blew my mind! It really has me thinking, thanks for sharing it.
I've always been greatly conflicted on where I stand on religion and my beliefs. In general I dislike religion. I feel it brings us farther apart rather than uniting us and is used to condemn those that do not follow your beliefs. Too much blood has been shed over religion.
When it comes to my own faith... I was baptized Catholic, a choice my parents made for me of course. When I was younger I remember going to Christian church often, but our family has never been very religious. As I grew older I distanced myself. I stopped feeling welcomed and began to question the Bible and God.
My father who claimed to be saved and "changed" by God used Christianity as a reason to be forgiven for everything bad he ever did. Including never being around for his children. He constantly used it against my brother and I, always quoting the Bible in his defense. Not only that, but one rare occasion when he actually contacted my brother, who lives in a care home suffering for paranoid schizophrenia, he said it was the devil inside him and that he should go to church. That is all.
I thought I was Spiritual, believing in souls and that all living things "go somewhere" but not really knowing where. I also believed in Ghosts. Lately though.... I question even those things.
The kind of God I read about does not sound like one I would want to worship. When I look at a beautiful sunset or just gaze at the sky I truly, deep down, do not believe that there is an almighty force looking down on me. I don't believe that below my feet there are souls burning in hell. They say God will not give you more than you can handle, but I call BS. People commit suicide daily, because why? Life is too much. I see people suffering and then told "God works in mysterious ways". I cannot accept that answer.
I still don't know where I stand... sometimes I find it unsettling to think that we just rot in the ground after death. Belief in life after death is a way many mentally deal with our own mortality and bare the loss of loved ones.