I didn't mean to upset you, I was just a little shocked at several of the causes of death. I'm sorry you lost your fishies, it is really difficult.
I wonder though, if you might've accidentally overmedicated Eva. Sometimes the different drugs you give the fish can actually harm them, if not used correctly. I am not trying to blame you, I'm only wondering about the medication. So...
You named three different medicines that you gave her, did you give her any others also?
Did you only give the exact dose?
How many medicines did you give at one time, or in quick succession?
I also understand what you mean when you say you have medical problems like PTSD and anxiety. I also suffer from both of those, along with being Bipolar, having OCD and a Panic disorder. I unfortunately am disabled and have had chronic abdominal pain for 7 1/2 years, and I also have osteoarthritis in my neck and lower back, topped off with bulging discs.
I also have a child. His name is Lucian and he's ten months old. I love him more than anything, so no matter how bad I'm hurting on any given day, I still do everything for him to make sure he's happy, warm, fed, has a lot of play time and naps and give him his bath. (well, my fiancee does it a night, I do it the next, and so on)
Ha, actually I'll have to finish this later, my fiancee just told me needs my help getting Lucian ready for his bath!