I'm so mad at myself. And sad, and just generally feeling like my bettas are cursed. I've lost THREE females in a week, and none of them went peacefully. Goldberry from dropsy ... these two from really nasty injuries. It wasn't pretty. I love these fish so much ... it's so hard to see them hurt and unable to do anything to help them. I had to put Lalaith to sleep ... she was literally bleeding to death, it was all I could do. Rest in peace girls ... I'm so sorry.
/ Quill (Brown Tabby and White Pancake Monster)[/FONT]
Don't blame yourself. In the space of a month we lost 2 males and 3 females. Sometimes these things happen and there's not much you can do to stop it. You took care of them as much as was within your power--in Lalaith's case you made things easier for her.
I beat myself up over the ones that I tried and failed to save until my room mate pointed out that those failures would have been worse if nothing had been attempted. You did what you needed to do...it just wasn't meant to be this time. Don't let it discourage you from trying again.