:) Thanks. Yeah she had a rough few days there before the end but with the help of this place she was able to be a bit more comfortable and rest and at least try to battle her problems the best she could. Right before i stopped her pain i kindof held her cup against my chest and looked down at her for a minute. My way of saying goodbye i guess, and she swam to the corner of the cup that was against me and looked up. Tried to swim to the surface, failing at it but trying nonetheless. It was like a fishy hug in a way :) It didnt make things easier but it was nice to have that little moment beforehand, i see it clearly in my mind. Today the java moss i ordered online for her came in, it was 5 days late but arrived alive and well, it felt a bit sad to not be able to give it to her to play in, But im sure my male will appreciate 2 live plants in his tank instead of a live and plastic and maybe in the future, though shes irreplacable, another little girl will give me that look again and i can give her a good life, and by then hopefully my java moss has grown even more to play in. But that java moss is coralines lol, its as if she laid claim on it in my mind. She would have swam laps all through it, such a playful girl. :) I miss her today, i contimplated hiding her tank so i wouldnt keep looking for her out of habit but id rather see it there and imagine what shed be doing then have an empty spot. Seems i can just go on and on about this, writing paragraphs each time someone reaches out and comforts me.
My male Fishy suddenly decided he loves his pellets today, he was being picky and only wanted larvae but i threw the bucket out and started over and i was a bit worried since he hadnt eaten in a couple of days. I guess its possible that hes trying to ease me as well. Hes been showing off all day, being alot less lazy then usual. Little Coraline would eat anything though, long as i had it on my finger. Once she bit and hung from my finger for a second :)) That was so funny, and afterwards she hid as if embarrassed that she got so carried away XD I made alot of memories in a short time. :)
RIP to my little Coraline.