I am getting really depressed lately. My husband is battling within his self and I believe it all revolves around his sister getting pregnant. Since hearing that he has been snapping at me and making no sense at all. I think he is jealous of her. He is the eldest and he married me who can't have children without treatment if at all and I think he is feeling angry because of it. What makes it worse is he took steriods and has no idea if he can either. I really think he is envious of her if not a little angry at God for letting her get pregnant when she is so obviously unfit.
We also went through hell last week to buy two new vehicles to shut his mom up. She gave him a van for christmas last year and she has asked to borrow it three times and asked for it back. She kept talking about how I don't work so I don't need a vehicle. I told him we were buying two new ones and I was taking over. She better never ask me to borrow our vehicles again because it isn't happening. She also had the nerve to ask us to help his sister move and he told her no. He said I wasn't to help her and wasn't either since she didn't help us move in here. He and I did it alone practically and his sister refused to help us. His mom kept throwing it up in his face that she is pregnant and he needed to do for her. He went off on his mom and told her he didn't give a crap and he wasn't going to kiss her butt because she decided to get pregnant by an idiot. His cousin got it too, she said to him, "well she is your only sister" he said well im her only full blood brother and what has she done for me? Nothing" His sister got a car reposessed in his name and screwed up his credit and has taken advantage of him so much he has snapped. The problem is he is backing away from me because of it and I feel more alone now than I ever did. He has totally fell backwards away from all of us because of some depression he is in. I put my foot down this weekend. We are going to go and spend the day at the indian mounds near us and we are going to lock the doors and turn off the phones after we do. I don't care if someone is bleeding on my door step I am not answering anyone and I am going to find out what is really wrong with my husband. This has gotten me to the point I am not concentrating well in school because the nerve meds I take as needed are being used more because of all of this. no over dosing I promise. He is just so darn secretive and he doesn't trust women. I see why as many times as they have screwed him over. His mom got a truck repossessed in his name, stole the money for the payments and got drunk with them while he was in the hospitol after having his hand cut off. His sister did the same thing with a car and now expects him to help her take care of her baby. His uncle gave him a bow for christmas and came up and took it back because jeff wouldn't give him a gun for trade. His mom gave him that van for christmas and now harassed him to the point he gave it back. His mom left his sister everything in her will including all money from life insurance... everything. His dad tryed to sell family heir looms for beer and he had to survive a week with his check a hundred and twenty dollars short since he had to buy the items. After he bought them his mom had the nerve to tell him that all of it was supposed to be left to his sister and jeff told her no since he paid for them. His sister enheirited all furniture of his dead brothers and all photos. She even has his original birth certificate that she will not give him. His sister has his baby hospitol hat and won't give it to him... They are horrible people. It's no wonder he is nuts right now.
Keep yourself clean and bright, for you are the window through which you must see the world.