I have to say that Okami was my favorite of my girls. I know I shouldn't say that, but I got attached to her the fastest and I didn't get a whole lot of time with her. She's also the first Betta I've lost since elementary school, but I guess they don't live forever and the more fish we have, the bigger the chance that we will lose one (or more).
I've also got to say that dropsy is a horrible, horrible disease. It sucks seeing their scales starting to pinecone and their condition deteriorate. It almost makes them look like they ate something they were severely allergic to when they swim up and look at you straight on.
I don't think they blame us, and we shouldn't blame ourselves, but they do look up to us as their only chance. Seeing that "sad" look makes it difficult not to try to help them, even if they don't have a big chance.
There is a point in the disease where THEY actually give up hope, and I think that's the only time to do it if you choose to put them down rather than suffer. It doesn't sound like either of them have hit that point, though.
Veyron Sprite Ayala
S.I.P. Okami, Bahari, Lotus, Mercy, Daihatsu, Ascari, Kuraokami, DaBaDee, Zenvo, & Stella <3