Haha, sometimes I wish he would do that! He's only fourteen pounds, so it's not like he'd be hard to handle. :P
Well, today is going to be a difficult day. I am switching my daughter to formula for her health as well as my own. It won't be difficult because she doesn't like it, and in fact she never even reacted the first time she had it. It will be difficult because in a way I feel like I am failing her. "Breast is best!" is something you hear all the time because, well, it's true. But when does that fact become secondary to something else? When is something more important than giving your child breastmilk? I had to decide for myself what I thought the answer was, and I think I came to the right conclusion. A mother being able to take care of her child is more important than that child getting breastmilk. In my case, this means that I am switching to formula for two reasons: One, my depression has become so severe that I am only capable of caring for my daughter for a few hours a day, and then my brother comes and takes her with him until my husband gets off work. During that time, she gets formula, and when she is home she gets breastmilk, which is not agreeing with her stomach. Switching back and forth like that is upsetting her tummy, and is probably not good for her digestion system, especially since this will have to continue for at least another month. Reason two, I am going to have to take a very strong antidepressant to make any progress, and those aren't safe while breastfeeding. There are medications that are safe, but I have either tried them before or they aren't strong enough. This decision took me a long time, but in the end I would rather be alive and healthy enough to take care of my daughter than be able to say I breastfeed her while I become less able to function, and end up in an irreversible situation. I still feel guilty, and probably will for a while, but it is my responsibility to do what is best for my child, and this (I hope) is doing exactly that.
Kindness and respect should be shown to all animals, no matter if they are furry, scaly, big, or small. Be a hero to the animals and GO VEGAN!