Your mom is a year older than me. lol Yeah, those things can be hard to let go of. I forgave him a long time ago. I know he loved me and I think he knew that I loved him, too.
On a happier note, I got my white betta! YAY! lol He's a halfmoon and he's beautiful. I'm letting him settle down in his cup before putting him in a semi permanent home which will be a one gallon until I can get him a bigger container or until someone else passes. I'll take pics later. I left my phone downstairs. My mom was asleep when I came in, thank goodness so I could smuggle him upstairs. lol