It took me forever to let people in o_O I was more grown up than most people, I never hit the "party" mode, the "drug" mode and I've tried drinking, but it barely gives me a buzz after a good many shots, and then it makes me sick
also, fyi, drinking DOESN'T help being sad. like silly songs and people say xD it doesn't null anything. At least for me. as everyone else is tripping over themselves and some were stripping -facepalm-
But it seems every time I let someone in, whether friend, roommate or boyfriend, I get screwed over SO bad and it NEVER ENDS. Even if I choose wisely, up the standards all that... :/ I AM SO UNLUCKY >:( And I hate being alone. But hey this is why I have animals. They love you, show they are scared of you sometimes.
I approached him about the fact the day he came to my workplace with her, his posture, and voice said something different than "This is my friend Meranda". So I already knew something was up. I just didn't know what... and then I found they both wanted to know "what could have been."
He's being very blunt, and avoiding that part but is explaining who she is kinda sorta. (where she works, and such)
I personally stay away from "what could have been" because what was THEN and what WASN'T then, the mind set hinders the NOW and what COULD BE.
but hey, I'm a loner in that fact and belief -.- urg.
I wonder if I could get a 1000-1200 travel loan. pay for a month of rent and bills, get someone to watch my fishies (strict rules and such) and cavys, and go see my bestest friend (my twin) in Alabama and GET AWAY :(