Rant thread

[MadameDesu]

I actually dealt more with OCD when I was younger. I was a special case, being a girl at age 6 with rapid onset due to something called PANDAS. Basically, I got strep and my immune system attacked it, but also caused the OCD. I was put on Prozac, and haven't done compulsions since. Later on, I tried to get off the Prozac at around age 10 ... That was a disaster as I got depressed. So I went back on it.
Lately, because of life changes, it's come back as panic. Basically like the obsessions and anxiety of OCD, but I don't feel the need to do compulsions to relieve the anxiety. It just kind of sits in my mind until I panic.
It's crazy because I know it's all lies and that my life is perfectly ok, but it doesn't *feel* like it, and that makes it really difficult to believe it's fake.
The Zoloft has helped, as well as identifying my triggers and NOT avoiding them, as well as talking to my psychologist and mom about them.
If its bad I take .25 mg of Klonopin, but thankfully I haven't needed it lately.
My only issue is really in the morning. Panic attacks wake me up evey morning :/

[gossipgirl1031]

So sorry MadameDesu. I have a mild form of OCD & it gets in my way. I also have a couple other things going on, but staying on top of things with your doctors, family & support system is good. Best of luck!

[gossipgirl1031]

I've been on different meds for different things since I was 18 (12 years ago). There may be some side effects, but the benefits FAR outweigh them. Listen to your doctor and your own instincts.

[gossipgirl1031]

OCD, ADD, Bipolar disorder, depression, anxiety attacks, anorexia, chronic insomnia & on & on & on. Everyone has issues & that's okay.

[thekinetic]

I had mine since I can remember, even when I was kid in elementary school. I was never put on anything and have suffered greatly over the years and often have a hard time connecting with people, mostly due to feeling so alone. I have attempted suicide (it's a long story). It got so bad I couldn't get out of bed and everything was a chore. Such is the nature of ocd.

The worry caused my body to over produce stomach acid until it finally burned my asophogus and made it so I couldn't eat or drink without being in terrible pain, as if the ocd didn't make eating hard enough.

I reached a breaking point then and had it continued I would now be dead. I took back my life, and there was never an air so sweet as that of freedom.

[MadameDesu]

Originally Posted by thekinetic

I had mine since I can remember, even when I was kid in elementary school. I was never put on anything and have suffered greatly over the years and often have a hard time connecting with people, mostly due to feeling so alone. I have attempted suicide (it's a long story). It got so bad I couldn't get out of bed and everything was a chore. Such is the nature of ocd.

The worry caused my body to over produce stomach acid until it finally burned my asophogus and made it so I couldn't eat or drink without being in terrible pain, as if the ocd didn't make eating hard enough.

I reached a breaking point then and had it continued I would now be dead. I took back my life, and there was never an air so sweet as that of freedom.

^^^^^^ THIS ^^^^^^

It sucks to be sick like that ... But when you get better, you realize how much you have to be thankful for :)

[gossipgirl1031]

It's definitely brighter on the "other" side. I'm a lot more comfortable talking about it now that I'm doing better. If I talk about, esp the eating disorder, it helps me to remember to keep trying. It's a struggle everyday, but one I can manage...now.

[thekinetic]

My life was a nightmare, on top of being that imagine being obese and constantly picked on. My older brother was also being an older brother and constantly tormented me. You can understand why I still have a problem with people and trust.

It's also the cause of most of my nightmares, as they are a symptom of post traumatic stress I believe. Though a few nightmares don't bother me none. What I really miss are the beautiful dreams I used to have, of forests and dragons and many other wonderous things. Not the darkness and foul creatures that lurk there now.

[Oiseau]

I was simply trying to save you the heartbreak and frustration that comes with a sick and/or dead fish. I'm sorry if I offended you, though I am not sure how I could have, but your response was still inappropriate and insensitive.

Never helping anyone again.

[Pilot00]

Originally Posted by thekinetic

The worry caused my body to over produce stomach acid until it finally burned my asophogus and made it so I couldn't eat or drink without being in terrible pain, as if the ocd didn't make eating hard enough.

I have that myself. It happened to me due to a combination of bad eating habbits, strong coffee and lots of alcohol. Havent burned my asophogus yet, but i fear if that continues for a few more years in the end it will.

How did you cured it if i might ask?