Day 5: Aquilies is dying..
He's laying completely on his side, gasping, he cannot swim for air no more, lowered water levels but no real point.
He's dying. I can see it in his eyes. He's looking at me "I'm dying-- I'm suffering" kinda look. I can't help but cry, I fail to rescue another betta yet again. I cannot euthanise him. I just can't.
1- I don't have clove oil
2- I do not dare decapitate a being
Is it cruel of me not being able to save him all the suffering? I just feel trapped, I cannot end his suffering but I feel like I cannot prolong his torture...
I doubt I'll ever try to get a sick betta healed up. I think my friend is right, buy healthy ones and provide them with the best life they can get. Which is in a sense saving them from eternity or sickness in a cup if gotten early.
I thank those who helped, gave advice, egged me on.