If your interested, the method I used was put the right clove oil dosage in, wait for the fish to be passed out, then pour in vodka. We didn't have any liquor, so I had to use some white wine. It still worked humanely and I was able to make a toast a nd take a (big) gulp.
Same. I get really sad the day it happens. When Turtle died I cried so hard, and also the next day at his funeral. But I guess my mind makes it fade away so it doesn't hurt as bad. What really hurt me was the fact that his death was my fault. Inexperience, ignorance, and bad water quality does not mix well :/