I am have commitment issues and might not keep this up, but I really need a place to vent everything out so here we go again....
red butterfly veil tail. used to be pretty shy, but has begun to toughen up. only one with me at the moment.
In my head:
Against All Odds (Take a Look at me Now) [cover] - The Postal Service
On my mind:
Boys, fish, school (in that order though I should probably rearrange it!)
What I need:
Brown sugar for my oatmeal, bagels for my cream cheese, determination to keep up my grades, to meet an understanding and respectful guy (yes that's the correct order this time.)
What I'm reading:
-Metamorphosis and Other Stories -- Franz Kafka
-The Theory of Moral Sentiments -- Adam Smith (well haven't started this yet)
-My chem and physics textbooks (well, supposedly...)
And life story time...
Ugh. I feel so darned awful today. I have the worst head cold, and I'm not used to being sick, so I'm probably just being a huge wimp when I say this but it is really dragging me down. I slept till 1pm today.
I have a lot of work to do. A chemistry lab and assignment to do. I already did my one lab that was due today, it's not like I'm doing NOTHING right now but I'm working at a turtle pace all day because of this sickness.
A math midterm Friday.
A biology midterm next Friday. And a chemistry midterm on Saturday.
I went to the dentist last Tuesday. He said my teeth look great for someone who hasn't seen a dentist since she was 8. I'm very lucky that I have really straight teeth naturally. We could never afford braces. I do need to get a filling done though. A very tiny one.. And he also said I need to remove my bottom wisdom teeth in a year or two (since I can't afford it this year, and it's not urgent). One of my upper wisdom teeth is so high up it's in my sinuses.
Hah. I'm very fascinated by all this, finally getting to see a dentist, and having x-rays done in my mouth for the first time. xD It's not all that exciting I realize.
This Tuesday I'm running for an executive position in our school's giant fair, College Royal
. It's basically a huge agriculture show. Hopefully I get the position I want, running the Ball, which is described as "prom on steroids." I love formal events and I would be so honoured to run one on such a huge scale. Plus I have another reason to wear my prom dress. :)
If I don't get that position though I will gladly take another one.
In 9 days (on my chem midterm, REALLY hope there isn't a conflict) I have a tattoo consultation, to work out pricing and maybe a design.
I am planning on getting a tattoo of my [late] goldfish Penelope:
In this style:
Along with some text (in a typewriter font, no crazy cursive for me, I'm a simple person);
"I never saw a wild thing sorry for itself."
From the terribly short poem by D.H. Lawrence;
"I never saw a wild thing sorry for itself. A small bird will drop frozen dead from a bough without ever having felt sorry for itself."
I never thought a fish could affect me so deeply as Penelope did, she was an amazing fish, really... As for the poem, yes, I used to spend so much time feeling sorry for myself and being depressed about things. It's a reminder to me that if I want to get anywhere in this world, I'm going to have to keep pushing like a wild animal does, and not stop to pity myself as it's just a waste of time. . .
As a final note; I'm really starting to miss the rabbit (Waffles) and have started looking for a pet friendly place. Have found a few. Hoping I can work something out..
Also trying to get to know a guy a little better before possibly asking him out for coffee or something (he's not the type who would make the first move I don't think). Of course neither am I. Had plenty showing interest in me so far, just not the one I happen to fancy (isn't that the case always?)
Okay, that's all for now. . . Back to chemistry.