Thanks, guys - this will sound wrong, but I'm glad I'm not the only person facing this kind of issue. It gets to feeling like I'm the only person in the world with this struggle at times, you know?
And I NEVER usually complain. I feel bad for blowing my fuse about it, when I do let off steam and get all "whyyy meeee'. Self-pity was not tolerated in my family, and I'm really glad for that for the most part. Just now and then.. it feels good to shake my fist at the sky.
Anti-rant: child support finally caught up with my SOB ex husband. I find it a vast pity that public flogging is not a part of the reparation system.
The upside is, I can finally afford to think beyond sheer necessity and buy something really nice for Daughter. I think a drawing tablet... I hear the Wacom Bamboo is a good model.