Well it's not like I mean to push people away. I hate myself for it -.- but hen again I forgive, and let people in too easily. Perhaps I'm just tired of being pulled around like a rag doll.
I still don't see how Dean's mom was actually worried since she hadn't seen me for months. There's some days I wished I lived in the middle of nowhere without any technology, just by myself with perhaps a dog companion, my fish, and my skills. But life doesn't work that way. Still have to pay money no matter where you live.