Originally Posted by LittleBettaFish
I just feel like such a pansy at the moment. Anxiety is such a stupid disorder. Like nearly every single worst case scenario I think up in my head never eventuates, and when it does (I got lost going to the dentist and missed my appointment and ended up walking about 5km in the wrong direction), it isn't even that bad.
I'm in the same boat with my anxiety, and am also ashamed to say I haven't had a job in years.
It doesn't impact me financially so much because my grandma needs my care, so I do get government benefits, but I am sick to death of relying on taxpayers and not pulling my own weight, if you know what I mean, even though *technically* I'm doing a job in caring for my grandmother full-time. I just... I want to get somewhere before it's too late, if that makes sense, but both my grandma needing care and crippling anxiety are holding me back. I'm forcing myself to do this course, and will force myself to succeed, because it's what I want to do as a profession, but at the same time I'm scared witless of even the practical aspect of the course, though I've been on the receiving end of body piercings many a time and know very well that it's not that big a deal when done correctly. I'm always scared of screwing up, and that fear is overwhelming, and now that fear is about something involving skin penetration, eek... I'm just scared that my anxiety is going to stop me from pursuing my dream career. Funny isn't it, fear of fear.
By the way LBF, what wattage of heater do you need? I have a few spare heaters and could post one to you if one I have is the correct size. They're those eBay ones, but they haven't failed me yet...