My mum was all frazzled and crabby today. She suddenly had to run out to get things in a nearby city, leaving lots of housework and dinner unmade. I wanted to help out (though I usually always do to some extent), so I made a nice casserole for us, put my brother to bed, did an absurd amount of laundry for her, cleaned the house, picked up her mess (which, if Id done the same, I wouldve been yelled at for) and anxiously waited for her to get home, to try the casserole.
I waited 40 minutes. She was 40 minutes late, said nothing, didnt say thanks for dinner and said nothing about the work. Im not saying that I need* a thanks, but at least acknowledge it. I did it for her :'c ...
What really hurt me most, though (more so than being a jerk about dinner), was after dinner. I'd just gotten done helping her with something else, where I gave her some of my personal stuff, when she told me I needed to do the dishes.
I'd done a full day's worth of them, plus the ones from cooking, and only had the casserole dish left. I was about to do it, but her snarly comment went first.
It made me sad.
I did all that nice stuff, tried to help out, and al I get was "do the dishes". :c
I did them, of course, as Id planned (neat freak lol), and she got strangely up in my face. She asked why I was gloomy (maybs because you made me sad?) and I told her, and she replied she "could bet money I wouldnt have done them and its not like I did anything else". That really hurt, especially when she followed up with condescending remarks. I frowned and looked down, which, for some reason, made her mad (wat?), and she kind of stormed out of my room.
My mom is two years old. I cant deal with this.. Nothing is ever good enough. Even if Im right, Im so wrong.
She can do no wrong, and I can nerr'do well. I try hard and do well and like to enjoy my life, but I cant with this woman. I cant even talk to her like an adult.
Its hard to talk like adults when the other person is as sound as a ten year old.
Sorry that was so long...
Just vair vair sad about it. I dont get sad about things too often, but that hurt.