With a lump in my throat and guilt in my heart i hate to say goodbye to you. Im so sorry i had to put you out of the misery you were in, i wished you would have a peaceful death, i really wished for it, but it wouldn't come and i saw you were unhappy, the glimmer of hope i had was selfish so i ended your suffering. Ive never done that before and i never want to do it again. But id like to remember you in a nicer light then i currently do so im going to tell you what i loved.
I loved how you would keep me company, i have social anxiety and had no hobbies, i was bored and lonely and you and my other betta kept me entertained. I loved watching you dart all over your new found space. So shy and curious like a little girl. Well you were a little girl! Your life ended far too soon, i was working on getting you a 5 gallon though i never minded the daily water changes, i actually enjoyed them. You would swim into the cup, ready for the water to be changed. Instead of pictures of myself i posted pictures of my fish on facebook, i thought you were beautiful! When people called id end up talking about my fish often. I dreamed of you last night, i wanted you to get better, today you were so cheerful, but then you lost control of yourself. I couldn't let you keep suffering like that while i slept peacefully in bed. That wouldn't be fair for you. I feel a hole in my heart, i feel sick, and it hurts, just like if you were a person. I wish i could have shown you a great life, i would have, believe me. One of my favorite things you did was eat food off my finger. When someone would visit i would show them your little trick. It was adorable how youd wag your little tail just before jumping and nipping at my finger. Who knew fish had such personalities! Now your tank is empty. Its lonelyer then before. Im really so so sorry for how this all turned out, it wasnt anyones fault, maybe the breeders for breeding a bad pair, or maybe petsmarts for not taking proper care of you. But once here i did my best. I cant believe your gone. I wish this was a dream and i hadnt have had to do what i did. I feel a wave of regret that i have to fight off. But im so sorry and i hope you didnt suffer too much in my care and i hope the end was fast, and i hope your in a happier place but ill never forget you. NEVER. I miss you already :( I wish so badly this hadnt happened. Im sorry Coraline, your time was too short. Your irreplacable. Be well wherever you are. <3
RIP Coraline 2:10am
I will take your broken little body and plant it tomorrow with some Pretty flower seeds. I have a feeling they will be the prettiest flowers ive ever grown. :(