It is hard. All of my tanks are empty. I cant believe i forgot this enormous step. This is the first time i have not one fish in my care. Since i have been in this hobby i always had at least 1 fish that can be cared for and i can come home to.
I think that its not the end, but a new beginning, because now i can get into breeding and not have to worry about other hassles. I loved the hassles though because hey they are my fish and if i dont care for them who will.
Something like this happened to me a while back and i got so fed up with my fish dying of the things i did, (one time i put a [Real] pine tree small branch in each of my females tank and they died) i just completely stopped buying researching and caring for the two bettas that i had.
Basically i took a break for about a month or two during the summer and later regret doing this because i wasted so much time on mourning instead of moving on and trying again. This was when i was really ignorant and didnt know much about them.
This time im going to try to move on and focus on creating my own line of Either HMPKDT bettas or HMPK bettas.