that's kinda how it was for me, Indyfish. Purple had the same thing Caroline had, so i wasn't expecting a recovery, since i couldn't figure out what was wrong with her. but, Theo was so sudden. having trouble swimming, then hours later, gone. same with Zidane. he was acting ill, so i started treating him, then he stopped eating, and i knew he was gone. Chappy was a shock to me.
it took me a long time. i mourned Theo's death for days, because it was so sudden. but, then i made the choice to get a new boy, and finally broke down and bought a marble i'd been oogling from Chard56 for weeks. and, i'm expecting him any day now! i almost gave up bettas, but couldn't bring myself to. lol