Join Date: Nov 2015
Location: Mahopac, New York
I was referring to a different thread, actually. He or she seemed willing to learn, I personally love when people come to this forum with bad information and leave with better information than they had.
-Long life rant incoming-
Life rant.. Not life rant, just done. This has a lot to do with my relationship, or lack of one. It's very personal but I need to talk about it.
My boyfriend and I separated for a few reasons. Things were not going well. For the last month or so, we've been fixing things. He's been trying to fix his problems this time around. It was improving until this morning at around 5:30am. I get a picture sent from his phone of his friend named Leslie, who I do not like and does not like me, kissing him (on the cheek, but it still pissed me off). Then, two minutes later, I get a call from a number I didn't recognize. I didn't answer it. I got a lovely voicemail of suggestive things involving him in progress. I gave it a few minutes. I sat and thought about it. He values his life, and he knows I'm crazy enough to knock him on his ass, he wouldn't do that, and I know how he is, how he thinks, and how he does things. I messaged him, then called him, and he answered and explained that she was drunk and she took his phone and she didn't know what she was doing. I was still pissed, mostly at the fact that she would even try to mess anything up, and I did not care if she had two heads, that's not acceptable. Nothing about that is okay, and he defended her actions, which bothered me even more.
I went back to sleep, and I woke up later and called him. He tried explaining things again since I was still noticeably pissed, and he let's it slip that he joined the Marines and signed his life away, and that's why she was so upset. Months ago he told me he wanted to, and I told him I was against it. I explained to him why I was against it, I explained the risks, I explained everything. He told me he changed his mind and I won't have to worry about it. Apparently, he decided to do it anyway without telling me. Not even a warning until he had already done it. He did it that way so I wouldn't try to convince him not to, and he wasn't planning to tell me until next week. Now he says he feels that if I don't support him in this, I don't love him or care about him. It's not that I don't, it's that he ignored my concerns, lied to me telling me he wouldn't sign up, and then did it anyway behind my back and tries to sweet talk it into seeming like he did it for me and our future.
I am very upset. I have a lot to think about, things are not going well for me. This entire week has been nothing but more crap after more crap. I need a break, and some wine.. I really do.
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Last edited by Tourmaline; 05-08-2016 at 10:59 PM.